No wise words, pontification, sermon or wisdom today. I can hear the heavy sigh of those of you who are so disappointed. ::insert sarcastic retort::
I did not pay attention to my meds this morning. It isn't a secret if you have read my blog that I was diagnosed with severe depression at 30 and re-diagnosed with Bipolar II last year. Add mild hypertension to the list and you get the pharmaceutical picture.
I evidently took too much of one medication and not enough of another. I have no idea which ones because putting them in a daily pill box would require some degree of maturity and motivation, both of which are in short supply right now. My brain is a whirling dervish and my body keeps thinking it is bedtime. I do not regret missing the 60s and LSD, I would not have done well.
I'm tired, jumpy, cranky, and anxious with the attention span of a rock. (that doesn't even make sense but it was the best I could do).
Thanks to Al-Anon I know what to do. Stop. Breath. Step back. Look at the problem and determine if I need help. I don't, thank goodness, but I know who to call if I did. All will be better and in the mean time I'm staying put, taking it easy and looking for my pill box.
I did not pay attention to my meds this morning. It isn't a secret if you have read my blog that I was diagnosed with severe depression at 30 and re-diagnosed with Bipolar II last year. Add mild hypertension to the list and you get the pharmaceutical picture.
I evidently took too much of one medication and not enough of another. I have no idea which ones because putting them in a daily pill box would require some degree of maturity and motivation, both of which are in short supply right now. My brain is a whirling dervish and my body keeps thinking it is bedtime. I do not regret missing the 60s and LSD, I would not have done well.
I'm tired, jumpy, cranky, and anxious with the attention span of a rock. (that doesn't even make sense but it was the best I could do).
Thanks to Al-Anon I know what to do. Stop. Breath. Step back. Look at the problem and determine if I need help. I don't, thank goodness, but I know who to call if I did. All will be better and in the mean time I'm staying put, taking it easy and looking for my pill box.
ugh. hope that the rest of your day is not too bad...med mess ups are no fun...
ReplyDeleteOh, we have had some med mix ups at our house, so I can relate. I have recently seen how important "consistency" is with those darn things!
ReplyDeleteI can relate to a lot of those feelings! You're right though, thankful for the gift of pause, assess & asking for help! Great tools.
ReplyDeleteI totally understand. Hang in there. You are also going through some stuff lately. It will pass. Take care of yourself.
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