February 17, 2011

Monsters in the closet..

Sometimes I like to post quotes on my FB that catch my eye.  Today I found this one,
My life has been filled with terrible misfortune; most of which never happened.
Montaigne
I liked this one because it reminds me that most of the stuff I create in my head to dwell on, to fear, to avoid, to figure out, to keep me paralyzed, never happens.  I have spent more time in my head trying to prepare myself for every conveivable outcome.  I had a imaginary crystal ball that kept me amused.  The problem was that the things I thought i was preparing for rarely happened.  A collasal waste of brain energy.  I learned that in Al-Anon.

I still have monsters in closets in my mind.  If I want to look for them, I will find them and I will wrestle with them, fight them, figure out ways to avoid them, or just sit in paralyzed fear.  Or I can listen to the voice that tells me they aren't real and can't hurt me.  I can turn on the light and see that they were just shadows of past pain.  A shadow can't hurt me but it can take my focus off the only real thing in my life and that is the moment...right now. 

I can't predict the future and the monsters in my head aren't real so what is left?  Can I accept that for this moment, I can be happy and free to love and embrace everything in my life.  Can I do something today, even though I'm (afraid, shy, tired, lonely, etc)?  Can I step outside the box and beyond the safe confines of my self-imposed buffer?  I am going to try.


3 Gentle souls who commented and shared:

  1. great quote...yeah we can twist the simplest thing into something epic in our minds...

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  2. If I could live in this space 100% of the time it would be great. Most days I do but it seems that when I project a positive outcome there is always someone there to tell me how this might not happen. How come we can believe something bad will happen but it is wrong to believe something good will. Equal odds in my mind. Thanks for the post.

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  3. I have dealt with a few of those shadows these past few days. But I know that they aren't real. I don't need to invent things that haven't happened.

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